Waiting for the Laughter:
My super powers invisibility,
The only time I’m seen
Is when somebody’s lonely
Or needs something from me
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They don’t want to be alone
don’t want to be with me
I’m just the punching bag they use
when they’re needing some release
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My feelings are irrelevant
The fact I mentioned them at all
Is proof that I am selfish
Why they left me, after all
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If on the phone and talking
and another call comes in
It’s, hey I’ve gotta get this
Im sure you understand
*
Believe me, I understand it
Just another sign that I ignored
Before when you found someone else
Cause with me, you’d become bored
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I’m lost here in a sea of people
Running ragged in life’s race
It’s clear I’m nothing special
in this crowd, another face
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I’m lost in dreams of darkness,
Forever waiting for the sun
listening for the laughter
but the laughter never comes
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Living on the edge of it
I guess comforts not for me
A step away from giving in
Clinging to my sanity
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I wonder sometimes, how it would feel, to let go, and just stop fighting
Would I find some inner peace
If I just gave up trying
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Or would it even matter
If I let the shadows consume me
Just drift away in madness
Become darkness’ company
