When The Spark Goes Out, Gaslighting Doesn’t Keep You Warm

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Hey babe, I really wanna say them, you know, those words that make you smile.

I know, you know I haven’t felt it, I haven’t felt it in a while.

We lost the part that made me trust you,

It’s all still hung up in my head.

While we were hurting, you didn’t hold me, you held another in our bed.

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And here I am still fighting,

I just don’t remember now, what for.

I gave myself to you completely, I never fell like that before.

And I know that you say all the right things,

remember, you said them all before.

And then you said them to another,

I don’t think I believe them anymore.

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Maybe it was all for show, and you never loved me like you said.

Maybe I chose to buy the fairytale, ignoring all red flags instead…

of putting myself first, I guess I don’t feel loved unless I bleed.

Maybe it’s not your problem after all, could it be the problem’s me?

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And here I am still fighting,

I just don’t remember now, what for.

I gave myself to you completely, I never fell like that before.

And I know that you say all the right things,

remember, you said them all before.

And then you said them to another,

I just don’t believe you anymore.